I need a Boss or motivatin trainer ;{

Alright,the month will end tonight and i will set some new goals,
first I'm not happy about my sample size and work i done in this month.My goal was 5 k games but i done only 3k.I had 2 not so nice downswings and also the Black friday took a lot from my playing motivation.
Now in May i will really do it better,no excuses anymore i need to hit my goal from 5 k games.

Also we lost a lot of traffic because of the Americans.So i will change and grind now also the 18player Sngs.They fill up quick in the afternoon time and i can easy play in 3 hours 50 games.
The profit and roi will be not so high like on the 45s and 180s but I'm sure i make some extra rake points and money.

I know I'm far behind my goals i set for the year,and i not feel good because of that but sometimes poker can suck so much specially when you do a leaving out from it.I took to much breaks and i wasted to much time.I really need more discipline again.

So my goal is again 5k games on may,no excuses this time!!!not much party!!!!and less drinks and maybe not so much girls! :}
Niedman

Anti Tilt strategys

After playing so much poker the last years i often had like everybody else some very ugly downswings.
It is always important to handle them right because it will hit everyone of you one day.The worst enemy for a poker player is it to go on tilt.For professionals it takes mostly longer but everyone experienced that before.
i remember my good old times on Party poker long time ago,i played highlimt Sngs and like my good old mate Volcan said before,on this good old days also hes Dog had a good return of investment with playing poker.
My worst down to this times was 3k-4k or something like that but i got a really good rake back and downs like this happened on the 109$ and 55$.It never feels good when you loose money but you also should keep in mind that you are a winning player and the money you loose you won before.
I had now the last 700 games a downswing,when i look back I'm 1300-1500 games break even.This Multiplayer Sngs are new for me but it looks like this are normal swings and i will be ok sooner or later for sure.Still I'm up 1700$ this month which is still ok money for Thailand.
I will share some of my experience with you guys,maybe you can pick up something if you dont know everything already :}

.The first thing when you run bad for a while is to be honest with yourself,your doing any mistakes or you play different than before?Maybe the other players are getting better?

I was playing today more carefully,didn't played so much tables like normal and run pokertracker to see stats from the others.I was thinking maybe because of the lost of the American fishes my roi went down.
OH guys I tell you all, there still enough bad players for all of us.In every country every day a moron awakes so the lost from the Americans is not so bad.

Second thing from the most of us is,we try to win the money back!
This is the worst thinking you can have and it is already a signal for you to finish your session and take a break.Most of the time you will be on tilt already and maybe your game has changed .You play more aggressive,you push and call more!
If it goes down you cant stop it,safe your bankroll and take a break.And if you run really long bad than take a longer break and do something different.Sports or hanging out with friends is always the best thing to relax your mind and forget about poker.(you can believe me I'm in a good place to forget everything soooo quickly  hehe)

The third thing is when your sure that you not on tilt,take the help from a other player you thrust and let him watch your game,or maybe you can play together it also will help you to play calm and relaxed.If you still play correct than you can carry on.

With the time you  know poker is a lot of varianz and you will take swings more easy.I still have some days like at the moment where i need to take breaks for some hours,but if i feel I'm ready again i start a new session.

There is lot more to writhe but im not in the mood right now,im enjoying a glass of wine and a nice German Brotzeit ;}

All the best
Heiko

Update

Hi guys sorry i didn't update for a while,my situation at this days is not so nice and I'm not happy with the result of my last games.I got now exactly 10 sessions where i only loose money.I very important spots i loose the flips or get suck outed from really everybody ;]
The graph shows now again a 1500$ downswing after the 1000$ downswing i had before hehe.In this month a lot of things went wrong and it was impossible to reach my goal from 5 k games.After the Black Friday i was shocked,didn't really know what happens in the future.Than everything was looking ok again and i started grinding.The downswing was not helping to feel better and i lost to much players in the morning session which was always very profitable for me against the Us players.Now i need to find a new rytmus and also some other games to get more sample size again.I will start with the 18mans.Maybe 50-100 in the daytime and 100-150 45-180 players Sngs in the evening.
From the winnings i expected in this year I'm far behind my goals.Specially the Mtts gave me nothing else than headache ;} I'm 2677$ down with the mtts this year.Ok one hit and I'm up but i will keep them for some days out of my program.Will try to update soon again,but please guys understand i hate to update always with bad news.Hope Hope you guys run better.
All the best Niedman

Pokerstars update

After all the problems we had in the past couple of days i was a bit worried because my cashout was to long on pending.But finally today a lot of people was getting paid again,my money went straight back to my account and the service told me they cant send any longer Dollars to Thailand.Need to send payments now in Euro.So they send 500$ back to my account.I was confident and felt thrust again so i start after a couple of days break playing again.Which was a bad idea :{
I went exactly 450$ down today lol thanks that's so funny !
Whatever shit happens but I'm sure now everything will come slowly ok  and i can focus again more on playing poker.I did not reach my goals this month and  i lost some days with all this trouble caused from the American goverment but I'm glad to present still my good roi the last 8weeks i played and changed my choice of games.It looks great and I'm looking forward to writhe more about poker soon again.
Will try to play over 1k games more to the end of the month and than i post my monthly graph.
Cheers everyone
Heiko

Morning time is dead now

The bad news is that when is will start up morning time to afternoon,i got to less players.The cash game Fix Limit Tables are complete dead.There was a single player sitting on the 5-10$ Fl table i think he waits for a miracle ;}
I also need to mix different games again in my session to become enough sample size and to keep up my goals.Right now i start 19\8 players Sngs.They still open quickly.45 and 180 players are more recommend for my evening or night job.I had a good weekend with a profit from 1680$ so I'm sure i will survive for a while longer :}

Upswing started after my break and without the americans

My first fazit after we lost the Americans

Tonight i was grinding and i actually had a good session.Was afraid that we loose to much traffic but everything was fine.Maybe it was ok because of the weekend.Is still very profitable to play and i saw some really bad players tonight.I feel very sorry for the regular American grinders there work all day so hard to get Supernova Elite and now they cant play.Hopefully everything will come soon ok again.
my first fazit is:
+still enough bad players left!
+traffic was still ok and we reached 250k players in the main play time!(guess over 40-60k players from Us we lost.
+maybe because we not only loose bad players we also loose good regs can still keep the Roi up.But i really dont want to think like that because this guys are in the same business like me and maybe they get some existence problems.

-Tournament Guaranteed money was dropped.!
-Some Sngs dont fill up so quickly like before!
-The most of my marked fishes disappeared :}

All together I'm sure is still ok to play on stars,maybe some of us who want to play more need to mix in some other  sngs in our session to get enough sample size.
lets hope the best that we Poker online players still can work for a bit longer before our goverment also starts to threat us like Crime people.
Still cant believe what happens on this Black Friday ;{
Heiko

Reminds me on my ex girlfriend :}

Good players always know there odss

Good Players always play there cards right ;}

Good Player always know when to fold :}

We lost the Americans again

What can i say this really keep me awake today i didnt sleep well.we lost a lot of americans and it will not make it easier in the future to make a lifing out of poker :{

Missed a final table very close today :{

Today i was running good in the turbo 11$ 10k gtd.30 people left and i was in the Big blind.Suddenly on the button i spotted Phyrrus a other Poker player from Thailand(also German same same me :} Some people may know him as the author of the book The microgrinder ) Phyrrus had a good run this days and of course he open raised from the button,lucky that i found pocket 10s and i restealed allin.Of course he had nothing ;} so he found hes fold quickly.After that we took a lot of chips from the other donks on the table :]
The last 2 tables left and we both was dreaming to play a final table together,he found Aq and lost a flip again a guy who was holding JJ.So Phyrrus was gone i saw it with a crying and a smiling eye :} the last good player was gone and i had a bigger chance to make some good money.10 Players left i found 5 handed a10 with a m from 4 a easy push.but by Jupiters Cock the gods gave the same guy who took the life from Phyrrus Aq and i also found myself out of the tournament.Maybe next time we have more luck.
Cheers everybody
Heiko

What the f......

I still hope somebody wake me up soon and tell me that is only a bad dream :{

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Still got some tables open will try to finish before i go absolute mad. Absolute impossible to make money get really my arse kicked from everyone and with every hand.For example my AA hand which i lost again Aq
Flop 5 8 q turn brings the next queen and the river gave the guy quads :}
For sure i will not cry but i have no motivation to carry on today if i dont feel better tomorrow i take another day of and start Friday again hopefully with a normal luck again.Really big respect to some of the other regs they still carry on and get the sample size.I'm to much human for shit like that ;]
Good night guys
your donkey Niedman

Running bad!!!!

I'm back but with not so nice news this time,first i played 600-700 games break even and now im the last 300games in a downswing.Im not tilted but a bit frustrated get a lot of beats and it feels like i win less coinflips.Checked out some good regular players and they also got this sings so it looks like it is a normal thing if you play a lot.More tabeles open more swings in the game.Of course i think also that i picked up some leaks again so i will play my next session more carefully.My Return on the 45mans this month is still fantastic got 1023games with a roi from 27% but i got a bad down on the 180 man so after 602games my roi went down to11%.
Im still not used to this swings since i done the change from the non turbos to the turbos but i will work harder to beat the games in the long run.
Good luck to all the others.
Heiko

Inet problems again

Started up my session in the morning but was getting again to many problems with my connection.This people here sometimes really cant manage anything right so i played with my stick and finished my tables.180$ up is the result but I'm not happy about the sample size.Need to play much more to reach my goals.Think i will really soon move out and look for a nice small house,than i organise 2 good connections and buy me a really nice poker setup.Paid already for the full month my rent so i will make the best out of it.If my month goes ok i will look around and check out some places.Always wanted to have a nice little home ;}

Back on my working place

Had a lot of day off now and feel very relaxed again.Went to bed early last night to be fit on monday morning.Will now try to play 200games average per day to the end of month.I finish my first session soon,will do some  shopping for the week.Tomorrow starts Songkran the Thai new year,everybody goes mad on these days.It was nice on the first time i was here,people always attack you with water but after a couple of days it gets pretty annoying.Also my foot is still bandaged so i think is better when i hide myself at home and play more.Every year on this time a lot of accident happens so is safer for an old man like me at home :}
Good luck for the new year guys and happy new year from Thailand!!

Day 5 of the grind

I'm really proud and happy that i can say i brought my game to the next level,after i changed a lot of things middle of last month.I changed my poker setup,and was getting my mental Lacey issues under control.The result is what you can see in the graph.I will still try to play 5-6k games per month.Reached after day 5 morning time 900 games with a profit from 2300$.
Now my indian friends are back from Chiang mai and i will enjoy there company till Friday,so i will play much more less.
Got a nice break since Thursday,didn't had a drink and was on a healthy diet,the result was much better concentration and focus on the games.Done less mistakes but i guess is normal when you constantly play 20-25tables.
This i also try to improve but i will do that carefully and step by step.
Wish you all well!
Heiko

3 days work

Alright guys after partying to much i shut off my phone and started on Friday evening again with my lovely poker games,is Monday morning now and i played 6 sessions i guess 20-25 hours of hard work.The result is very nice,i started very bad and was first a couple of bucks down but than it changed quickly again.So i played over 600 games and got a profit from 1500$.Good start but honestly i need a small break start dreaming from poker too is too much :} .
I need my bed now,all the best for the new week guys i wish you all well!
Heiko

Result last month

Last month i change from the non turbos back to the turbos and the first time i put some good sample size.This 3000 games i played in 18 days, The first week in the month i was nor playing the turbos and the last week of this month i took a time off because my Indians friend reached here and we went out every day.So my goal for april is to play between 4-6k games.If i can really do that i will gain a lot of rack back plus the winnings.I'm fresh motivated and i will get straight back to work after i wrote this.
For all players good luck on the tables if you need it ;}
For all my other friends all the best too.
take care guys
Heiko

My 32.birthday

On the 30.march i celebrated with my friends my 32 birthday in a place of my Thai Friends.Was getting a good deal for the place plus food and drinks.And i think i can say everybody enjoyed this evening.So much different people and cultures on one place is a great thing,there is always a interesting person to talk.At 3 in the morning only a couple of people was left and we moved to a my friends bar.There we split up i think 6 or 7 morning time.Very tired but in a good mood direct to bed.The bed i didnt left for 36 hours :}