Hopeless

Well guys i didn't update that blogg for a while,because there was not much i can writhe about Poker.Before 3 weeks i wrote i had some crazy days and there is only one more birthday to celebrate before i get serious again.Well like i said it is 3 weeks ago and it was a fu....lie.
The truth about me is:i lost absolute the control.I dont know me like that,i just dont play poker anymore.When i play i loose because im not really with my brain on the tables.I think my brain is somewhere lost,i might find it in one of the nice a Gogo bras here!
Yes it is sad in one point, because i break all my good rules,Close to 3 years i survive on poker.I do actually well,i never spend more than i earn,well a short look at the new numbers this month should teach me different.Lost in poker 1500$ and lost 7000$ in Pattaya :[
But like my friend says,who the fu.... wants to work and we have only one life.
Honestly guys i got the time of my life.But i also know i cant carry on like this.No one can,also when i ship the sunday million,i'm able to spend that money here in a year or maybe quicker.
Talking about my other crazy friend he just knocked my door with a nice Lady in hes arm,well he plays also poker so something we must do right or not?
I actually sleep alone tonight,and im very proud that i can manage that.Well i dont wanna tell to much about my private life only my close mates got more in formations :]

My Thai lessons went very well at the beginning of the month,but the second part of the month my teacher lost it a bit on me.Must be the drinks and not enough sleep,i just cant pick anything up....
I promised him to be a good boy soon again,he is a nice guy and i really dont want to waste hes time.
By the way i also lost some money because i staked a guy,on chipmeup.He took all togeter 8k from people from me 400$....We all was getting scammed.
That means he took our money and buggered of.He created a account ,took a profile from a good winning player.Told us to ship the money to chipmeup and not to stars because he is afraid to loose money there.Hes excuse was the Black Friday,well we all believed him and we are all a little smarter now hehe.
Whatever i cant be angry ,there are to many luckhormons in my blood :}
I wish you guys all the best,have fun and never forget.We all life only one time!
Cheerio Heiko