Not so much fun !

I started high motivated in the new month.Saturday i played a lot of Mtts in a mix with the 180s Sit And goes.After 9 hours getting raped from the first hand to the last i finally gave up and decided to start on Sunday fresh up again.The last table on Saturday gave me hope to get maybe a small final table.So i had to chance to get deep again.the last 40 people and i was involved in a funny hand.
I had aj on a board J 9 6 .I checked to the aggro fish,my plan was a check raise.Plan was working,but after my check raise he went allin.The guy had a vpip from 72% and a preflop raise from 30%.He can have everything so easy call.He showed me 5 4 offsuit.If i win that hand i got finally a chance to get at least one good table.But after the 5 came up on the turn i was sure im out.He hits also on the river and i was smiling.The first day and the first session was over i jumped to my bed.
All the hands from the day came up in my dreams,i think sometimes this Job is the worst in the world.
First day i was down 550$.

Day 2 ,i started up fresh and still motivated.after 3 hours i was thinking maybe is better to find a Job again.6 Hours later i was screaming and finally i just left my last table and went to bed.
to describe all the beats it will take hours.We all have beats and bad runs and i will not complain to much because i still do ok with this games.But sometimes is amazing how bad we can run.But i will stick to my plan this month.Monday and Thursdays a re my day offs and the other 5 days i will grind.

It feels funny,down over 1000$ this month.Is the same when you need to bring money to your office only that your Boss will let your work ;}
At least i think is a good challenge,try to get some winnings this month.

Today i meet some friends,will relax.Is a nice day here so lets make the best out of it.
Thanks for reading
Heiko